I had a dream I was driving down the road - it was a pretty straight road - but I was so tired I couldn't keep my eyes opened...they were dry - and heavy - and I had to keep blinking - and my muscles barely worked - I wasn't steering, but rather watching the car smoothly "sail" down the road - curving slightly as the road did. I took a quick nap (oh 30 minutes) and woke back up - slightly surprised that the car was still on the road - and noticed we were going on an overpass - or exchange or something - very high, and it curved - but I was sooo tired - I couldn't really move my muscles to turn the steering wheel - my eyes were SO heavy - and SO dry - I just wanted to take long blinks - as I watched the car turn slightly - I knew it wasn't a strong enough turn to make the curve in the road and we were going to plummet to our deaths - and I was too "lazy" to grab the wheel and even just turn it slightly - I still had hopes the car would navigate the turn on it's own...then the dream stopped.
I forgot about it - actually - it was Saturday night - and Sunday - I read this quote in the book "Return" by Elder Robert D. Hales...(highly recommend it!!)
"Many people approach life as if they were a twig floating down a river rather than kayakers who direct the course they take. Too many of our youth are like the twig, simply floating through life and into the critical moments of their destiny. When we do that, we are subject to the whims of the world and the currents of life. Many of us are going through life saying to ourselves, If I just keep going long enough, I'm going to get somewhere. But we don't define exactly where that somewhere should be.
"How tragic it is when we fall into believing that all is predestined and cease to believe in a loving God of miracles who wants to help us succeed. The idea that we are predestined to go down a certain road that wherever we go and wherever we end up is where we should have been all along - no, I'm not a believer in that. I hope you aren't. There are too many of us who go through life, regard some action of our own doing, and say with conviction, Well, that must have been what was supposed to happen to me. It isn't true. What we do to ourselves is not necessarily our destiny.
"Don't let life just happen. Our goals, motives, and diligent efforts determine where we go in life. Life is not predestined. What we want and what we set out to do on a daily and weekly basis shapes what we accomplish in our lives. If we have no goals, then we are like Alice in Wonderland. We are traveling somewhere but nowhere in particular. Of course we are going to end up somewhere if we keep going, but is that where we want to be? Is that where Heavenly Father wants us to be?"
I realized that I'm kind of a twig - and I need to make more specific goals - and specific ways to accomplish those goals!
